I never sent this though - in retrospect, I should have, and drawn a line under the sordid, heart rending affair that was my dalliance with LK. 
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I have given our prospective Thursday evening meetup a lot more thought. Under different circumstances - if we didn’t have the ‘us’ elephant in the room - I would have no reservations whatsoever with popping into London to see you. I enjoy your company that much, and have genuinely looked forward to every second we’ve spent together.
I get the sense that you are, or are close to being, at a critical irritation threshold on the ‘us’ subject (as I also perhaps am). Admittedly, and to my shame, I am under no illusions whatsoever that this state of affairs has been largely precipitated by my persistence - most of it unplanned - in not letting things be, and to flow. For that I must apologise.
Given this background, and the specific events which have precipitated this meetup, I fear we would be unable to just enjoy being together on a night out and suggest that we cancel. You’re away to Paris, and it’s unfair and selfish of me to drag you through this on the eve of your departure, distracting you from focusing on and looking forward to, having the thoroughly pleasurable time out there you fully deserve.
In retrospect, you’re quite right in wanting to be cautious, and to protect yourself from harm - considerations which apply to me too. In my case, I have allowed my heart overrule my natural inhibitions - which is neither safe, right nor wise; especially given the fact that the body of evidence here hardly supports overruling caution. With the privilege of hindsight, and a semblance of objectivity, what we really are at best are two adults who enjoy each other’s company, have largely congruent worldviews and a sufficient number of shared interests to be able to converse and not grate each other by our difference. A lot more evidence than that is required to be able to make the sort of decisions I have selfishly asked of you - again something I am not entirely proud of, and for which I apologise.
For the record, I have thoroughly enjoyed meeting you and getting to know the little I have of you in the past four months. Thinking of you awakened - and still does - an intense feeling of wanting to care for, protect, honour and spend as much time with and around you. That you could unlock such feelings in such a short space of time, and that these have overridden my rational, pragmatic thought processes is both a tribute to your engaging personality and my admiration for the focus and determination with which you appear to take life head on.
I accept that the evidence - the cold hard facts of what we know about each other - is more consistent with your more cautious (and eminently sensible) position, and in retrospect believe that the sort of unreserved conclusions about us and the future I somehow reached are overly optimistic and border on the foolish and premature. My inevitable conclusion from the foregoing is that in the near term, both our interests are best served by some time apart - for you, to continue with the thinking processes under girding your decision if there is still one to make, and for me to undertake a period of intense soul searching, one outcome of which I hope will be arriving at a place where my emotional investment is at a level consistent with the reality of where we are now.
These are difficult words to write, and it is with much thought, consideration and agonising both for my own future emotional health and yours that I have reached this conclusion. As someone who unreservedly accepts the Sovereignty of God in all things, I can only lean on the hope implicit in the acceptance of that sovereignty; that if we are meant to be, we will, and will survive time apart. If not, we will just have to keep it moving, and trust that God in his Wisdom knows best.
Thoughtfully and Respectively Yours,
AJ