I am big on putting together grand plans, ones which go to a great level of details to spell out the things I want to do and achieve. Where things have fallen down over the past few years has been in the application; the hard, long slog that is the doing needed to bring the plans to fruition. It would appear that in this regard I am like most people, particularly as this relates to New Year’s resolutions. This gap - this disconnect between what I want to do and what actually happens - is most obvious in the area of my spiritual practice. As an example, getting to a place where a daily time of prayer and bible study is embedded in my daily routine is one of the key things I have wished for over the course of the last few years. This has tended to be more a source of frustration than inspiration in my case, especially as these failings drive a sense of cognitive dissonance.
The fundamental question undergirding this cognitive dissonance is a concern around the place of (an absence of) emotions and desire in my spiritual practice. I would like to believe that the desire to perform these spiritual disciplines should be moe or less automatic - if indeed my lfe has been changed.
Has it?
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A musing stirred by the Discover Prompt: Mind The Gap